My lonesome update for mid October

2008-03-24T12:24:14Z

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{{OpAphid
|name = my lonesome update for mid October
| number = 15
|image = tachyon2.JPG
|caption = No one was happy on the 12th.
|date = 20061023
| blogger = Tachyon
|plainblogger = Tachyon
|url = {{youtube|bl5AnVlsRwU}}

|description = Sorry about how busy i have been. I haven't been able to call for a few reasons. I hope you haven't forgotten about me! LOL
|tags = {{tags|everything|tachyon|october|lonesome|television|ceremony|office|lost|phone|sorry|not|update|checking|has|happened|okay}}


| execprod = Glenn Rubenstein
| assistprod = Mari Devincenzi
| directors = Glenn Rubenstein
| camera = Glenn Rubenstein
| vidplay = Glenn Rubenstein
| story = Glenn Rubenstein
| editor = Glenn Rubenstein
| song = Radiohead, "Karma Police"

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}}
'''my lonesome update for mid October''' is the fifteenth video in the [[OpAphid]] video series.

==Transcript==
(''Black screen, white text.'')
 
'''Text:'''
I've been out of touch. 
Yes, i've been busy. 
i've been so busy trying to keep up 
with the order in my life. 
i haven't been able to do everything I had hoped. 
I learned my lesson: 
Maintaining order is very time consuming. It keeps 
you on your toes. 
With any luck, i might be closer to 
accomplishing my goals. 
Even though things have unfolded in a 
rather unpredictable way. 
And it is taking A LOT longer than I 
thought it would take. 
i am having a hard time working in these surroundings... 
...even after all this time. 
I've thought it over a lot. 
My only explanation? 
I haven't fully embraced my situation. 
Not as much as i should have. 
It just seems like such a long 
time has passed! 
Didn't we originally think that the 
curtain would have fallen by 
mid-October? 
I now have this sinking suspicion 
that i'll be here a few more weeks. 
Maybe even until the end of the year. 
I worry about how insignificant i 
feel in the order of things. I'm not 
sure how much value i have. 
I think i am well-linked by some. 
And i am being given priveleges, 
which I appreciate! 
For instance, i've had more access 
to television recently than I 
suspected i would. 
At least that bodes well for the 
chance I'll be able to watch the 
World Series on TV! 
But there were events I'd hoped to 
actually attend earlier this month. 
Unfortunately, i was unable to. 
Television is a good distraction. 
That "Grief Counseling" episode of 
The Office? Good stuff. 
But still, it's not what I had hoped 
to watch that night. 
I was surprised thought: The things 
I missed were actually 
videotaped... 
Someone else with a similar interest posted a video onto the 
internet. 
The quality was poor, but it made 
up for the access i lacked. 
I wasn't sure what to make of it, actually. 
It was a bit of a letdown! 
Even thought I probably built it up way too much in my head. 
Now I am thinking that maybe it 
wasn't what I had predicted. 
Since it's the internet, the video could've easily been a 
staged hoax of some sort. 
In fact, maybe that event has yet 
to take place? 
I don't know what to think from 
what i have seen in the time 
since... 
Because strangely, little has 
changed. Maybe it's just that my 
day to day is pretty much the 
same, but there was no major shift 
from my perspective. 
i am living the same life i have 
been. I really thought i would have 
a different viewpoint on things. 
But it's all just the same. 
Except i have had my computer 
access limited in recent weeks. 
Severely limited. 
It seems other operations are 
given priority over what i am 
working on, 
and I am not even sure if i can see what those are exactly. 
i am not allowed to participate in 
the operations of interest, only 
smaller projects. 
I find it dull, but at least i am not being scrutinized much. 
I still do not see the clear 
connections. 
i can't see the full picture yet. 
Please tell Mom and Dad that I am 
sorry for not calling. 
i lost my cell phone, and it had their phone number on it. 
That's one of the main 
reasons why i haven't been 
able to check in with you all. 
(and I sincerely apologize) 
But I hope you're still 
watching for these. 
Even thought i've been so busy 
that I haven't written as often as 
I had promised to. 
That cell phone was the only 
place that i had their 
number, actually. 
Yours as well. 
i am not quite sure where i lost it. 
no one here has given me any indication that they found it. 
I'm 99% certain that everything on 
there is secure. 
But I apologize if you've gotten any strange phone calls as a 
result. 
If that happens, please find a way 
to let me know, okay? 
Like, immediately! 
I'm sure there's no need to worry. 
In the event of the worst-case scenario, I am sure i will figure 
something out! 
I miss you all! 
With any luck, I will see you sooner rather than 
later! 
XOXO, 
T

==Notes==
*[[OpAphid]] suggested that we look into Tachyon's "i's." She suggested that I was her [[the Order|Order]] persona and i was her persona.
*The music that plays in this video is Radiohead's 'Karma Police' played with violins and other such instruments.

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