I've Got Issues

sdfhsdfosdf;ahbkjdchel: I've got something on my mind. And I figure as long as I have to continue doing these video blogs, I might as well talk about it. Until a month ago, I was seeing this guy Jordan. We started going out last fall. It was going really great at first. But I suppose if things are going great at the beginning, it would never really go. Jordan is in a band. And back in April I started to suspect that he had some very personal connections with a few of the female fans. I checked his cell phone and I found a few text messages that were not appropriate for my boyfriend to be sending. When I confronted him, he swore it was just flirting. And I believed him. Because I guess I wanted to. Oh, and I did that stupid girl thing where I blamed the other girl for trying to steal my man and... maybe I left a few voicemails that in hindsight could have been considered... threatening. So I felt really stupid for jumping to conclusions... until his birthday last month when I stopped my his apartment to suprise him. What I walked into couldn't really be misconstrued as anything else other than my boyfriend having sex with another girl. At my college they offer free, anonymous STD tests. Back in February, a friend of mine asked me to go with her. I can count the number of partners I've had on one hand, with fingers to spare. But I got tested when she did as a sign of solidarity. You know like, when you go shopping together and you each buy something. Look, girls are weird. What do you want from me? Anyways, two weeks later I called in to get the test results, and everything was good. But now I've been worrying about what else my ex-boyfriend had up to. So yesterday, I looked online and found a clinic that offers STD tests with only a few days turnaround. I went there on my lunch break yesterday, and it was relatively painless. Other than the fact that it cost $85. If my ex gave me cooties, I'm gonna kill him.