Difference between revisions of "An update of sorts"
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|date = September 24th, 2006 | |date = September 24th, 2006 | ||
|url = [http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=62fnv5DLNbk Watch] | |url = [http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=62fnv5DLNbk Watch] | ||
| + | |song = Iron Maiden, "Can I Play With Madness?" | ||
|description = so now you can finally all get off my back and stop asking me what i've been doing! ;) | |description = so now you can finally all get off my back and stop asking me what i've been doing! ;) | ||
|tags = [[tachyon]] [[dodgers]] [[angels]] [[swimming]] [[hiking]] [[summer]] [[fall]] [[equinox]] [[busy]] [[habitat]] [[nested]] [[familiar]] [[illusion]] [[hindsight]]}} | |tags = [[tachyon]] [[dodgers]] [[angels]] [[swimming]] [[hiking]] [[summer]] [[fall]] [[equinox]] [[busy]] [[habitat]] [[nested]] [[familiar]] [[illusion]] [[hindsight]]}} | ||
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==Transcript== | ==Transcript== | ||
Black screen, white text<br> | Black screen, white text<br> | ||
| − | + | so I haven't updated this in awhile<br><br> | |
| + | and I removed all of my old videos.<br> | ||
| + | (long story, but i learned my lesson)<br><br> | ||
| + | it's nice to have fallen into a gig<br> | ||
| + | that'll keep me nested in a somewhat familiar habitat...<br><br> | ||
| + | ...but I fear that is just an illusion.<br><br> | ||
| + | at least I keep telling myself that.<br> | ||
| + | but how long can i keep observing<br> | ||
| + | an illusion as real before my mind<br> | ||
| + | accepts it as reality?<br><br> | ||
| + | thankfully, the weather is nice.<br> | ||
| + | plenty of nature to expore. every<br> | ||
| + | week I learn about new places to<br> | ||
| + | go hiking or swimming...<br><br> | ||
| + | ...if and when i get that rare free<br> | ||
| + | moment, I hope to have the energy<br> | ||
| + | left to actually prioritize that!<br> | ||
| + | (double optimism)<br><br> | ||
| + | all summer, the momentum of my<br> | ||
| + | day-to-day demands has kept me<br> | ||
| + | feeling like I am trapped in a state<br> | ||
| + | of exhausted motion<br><br> | ||
| + | <nowiki>[irony noted]</nowiki><br><br> | ||
| + | at least it's helping me ignore just<br> | ||
| + | how surreal I should find all of this,<br> | ||
| + | and i am ignoring it quite well.<br><br> | ||
| + | i am trying to approach it as my<br> | ||
| + | ability to keep up with these<br> | ||
| + | demands directly reflects qualities<br> | ||
| + | of my inner self...<br><br> | ||
| + | ...and my inner self has a fierce<br> | ||
| + | determination to be able to watch<br> | ||
| + | the World Series this year.<br><br> | ||
| + | right now, nothing sounds better<br> | ||
| + | than an actual game. I could use an<br> | ||
| + | excuse to try out some obscene<br> | ||
| + | gestures i've acquired<br><br> | ||
| + | but given that I was so<br> | ||
| + | overwhelmed with busy work<br> | ||
| + | yesterday that i had to be reminded<br> | ||
| + | that it was already the Fall Equinox...<br><br> | ||
| + | I am going to try and keep my<br> | ||
| + | expectations realistic. Believe me,<br> | ||
| + | I know that the closest i may get is<br> | ||
| + | watching it on live TV.<br><br> | ||
| + | I am glad at least that I found the<br> | ||
| + | time to write a little tonight.<br><br> | ||
| + | i should remind myself to do it<br> | ||
| + | more often.<br><br> | ||
| + | I've had a long day, so i'm off to let<br> | ||
| + | my mind focus on a fantasy that<br> | ||
| + | actually might show even greater<br> | ||
| + | optimism on my part...<br><br> | ||
| + | <nowiki>[and believe me, if i could help<br> | ||
| + | make it happen I would]</nowiki><br><br> | ||
| + | but I'd love it if the Dodgers and the<br> | ||
| + | Angels faced off next month.<br><br> | ||
| + | but given my track record as of<br> | ||
| + | late, i haven't been so hot with<br> | ||
| + | most of my predictions.<br><br> | ||
| + | <nowiki>[I most sincerely hope I'm due]</nowiki><br><br> | ||
| + | xoxox,<br><br> | ||
| + | T | ||
| + | |||
| + | ==Look into her I's== | ||
| + | Aphid suggested we look into her eyes and it was suggested that the little i is her Order persona and I is her Bureau persona. With the name Julie standing in as little i we get this text<br><br> | ||
| + | so I haven't updated this in awhile<br><br> | ||
| + | and I removed all of my old videos.<br> | ||
| + | (long story, but Julie learned my/her lesson)<br><br> | ||
| + | it's nice to have fallen into a gig<br> | ||
| + | that'll keep me nested in a somewhat familiar habitat...<br><br> | ||
| + | ...but I fear that is just an illusion.<br><br> | ||
| + | at least I keep telling myself that.<br> | ||
| + | but how long can Julie keep observing<br> | ||
| + | an illusion as real before my/her mind<br> | ||
| + | accepts it as reality?<br><br> | ||
| + | thankfully, the weather is nice.<br> | ||
| + | plenty of nature to explore. every<br> | ||
| + | week I learn about new places to<br> | ||
| + | go hiking or swimming...<br><br> | ||
| + | ...if and when Julie gets that rare free<br> | ||
| + | moment, I hope to have the energy<br> | ||
| + | left to actually prioritize that!<br> | ||
| + | (double optimism)<br><br> | ||
| + | all summer, the momentum of my<br> | ||
| + | day-to-day demands has kept me<br> | ||
| + | feeling like I am trapped in a state<br> | ||
| + | of exhausted motion<br><br> | ||
| + | <nowiki>[irony noted]</nowiki><br><br> | ||
| + | at least it's helping me ignore just<br> | ||
| + | how surreal I should find all of this,<br> | ||
| + | and Julie is ignoring it quite well.<br><br> | ||
| + | Julie is trying to approach it as my/her<br> | ||
| + | ability to keep up with these<br> | ||
| + | demands directly reflects qualities<br> | ||
| + | of my/her inner self...<br><br> | ||
| + | ...and my/her inner self has a fierce<br> | ||
| + | determination to be able to watch<br> | ||
| + | the World Series this year.<br><br> | ||
| + | right now, nothing sounds better<br> | ||
| + | than an actual game. I could use an<br> | ||
| + | excuse to try out some obscene<br> | ||
| + | gestures Julie's acquired<br><br> | ||
| + | but given that I was so<br> | ||
| + | overwhelmed with busy work<br> | ||
| + | yesterday that Julie had to be reminded<br> | ||
| + | that it was already the Fall Equinox...<br><br> | ||
| + | I am going to try and keep my<br> | ||
| + | expectations realistic. Believe me,<br> | ||
| + | I know that the closest Julie may get is<br> | ||
| + | watching it on live TV.<br><br> | ||
| + | I am glad at least that I found the<br> | ||
| + | time to write a little tonight.<br><br> | ||
| + | Julie should remind myself to do it<br> | ||
| + | more often.<br><br> | ||
| + | I've had a long day, so Julie is off to let<br> | ||
| + | my/her mind focus on a fantasy that<br> | ||
| + | actually might show even greater<br> | ||
| + | optimism on my part...<br><br> | ||
| + | <nowiki>[and believe me, if Julie could help<br> | ||
| + | make it happen I would]</nowiki><br><br> | ||
| + | but I'd love it if the Dodgers and the<br> | ||
| + | Angels faced off next month.<br><br> | ||
| + | but given my track record as of<br> | ||
| + | late, Julie haven't been so hot with<br> | ||
| + | most of my predictions.<br><br> | ||
| + | <nowiki>[I most sincerely hope I'm due]</nowiki><br><br> | ||
| + | xoxox,<br><br> | ||
| + | T | ||
| + | |||
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Revision as of 01:44, 6 November 2006
an update of sorts is the first video in the Tachyon video series, a component of the OpAphid game.
Transcript
Black screen, white text
so I haven't updated this in awhile
and I removed all of my old videos.
(long story, but i learned my lesson)
it's nice to have fallen into a gig
that'll keep me nested in a somewhat familiar habitat...
...but I fear that is just an illusion.
at least I keep telling myself that.
but how long can i keep observing
an illusion as real before my mind
accepts it as reality?
thankfully, the weather is nice.
plenty of nature to expore. every
week I learn about new places to
go hiking or swimming...
...if and when i get that rare free
moment, I hope to have the energy
left to actually prioritize that!
(double optimism)
all summer, the momentum of my
day-to-day demands has kept me
feeling like I am trapped in a state
of exhausted motion
[irony noted]
at least it's helping me ignore just
how surreal I should find all of this,
and i am ignoring it quite well.
i am trying to approach it as my
ability to keep up with these
demands directly reflects qualities
of my inner self...
...and my inner self has a fierce
determination to be able to watch
the World Series this year.
right now, nothing sounds better
than an actual game. I could use an
excuse to try out some obscene
gestures i've acquired
but given that I was so
overwhelmed with busy work
yesterday that i had to be reminded
that it was already the Fall Equinox...
I am going to try and keep my
expectations realistic. Believe me,
I know that the closest i may get is
watching it on live TV.
I am glad at least that I found the
time to write a little tonight.
i should remind myself to do it
more often.
I've had a long day, so i'm off to let
my mind focus on a fantasy that
actually might show even greater
optimism on my part...
[and believe me, if i could help<br>
make it happen I would]
but I'd love it if the Dodgers and the
Angels faced off next month.
but given my track record as of
late, i haven't been so hot with
most of my predictions.
[I most sincerely hope I'm due]
xoxox,
T
Look into her I's
Aphid suggested we look into her eyes and it was suggested that the little i is her Order persona and I is her Bureau persona. With the name Julie standing in as little i we get this text
so I haven't updated this in awhile
and I removed all of my old videos.
(long story, but Julie learned my/her lesson)
it's nice to have fallen into a gig
that'll keep me nested in a somewhat familiar habitat...
...but I fear that is just an illusion.
at least I keep telling myself that.
but how long can Julie keep observing
an illusion as real before my/her mind
accepts it as reality?
thankfully, the weather is nice.
plenty of nature to explore. every
week I learn about new places to
go hiking or swimming...
...if and when Julie gets that rare free
moment, I hope to have the energy
left to actually prioritize that!
(double optimism)
all summer, the momentum of my
day-to-day demands has kept me
feeling like I am trapped in a state
of exhausted motion
[irony noted]
at least it's helping me ignore just
how surreal I should find all of this,
and Julie is ignoring it quite well.
Julie is trying to approach it as my/her
ability to keep up with these
demands directly reflects qualities
of my/her inner self...
...and my/her inner self has a fierce
determination to be able to watch
the World Series this year.
right now, nothing sounds better
than an actual game. I could use an
excuse to try out some obscene
gestures Julie's acquired
but given that I was so
overwhelmed with busy work
yesterday that Julie had to be reminded
that it was already the Fall Equinox...
I am going to try and keep my
expectations realistic. Believe me,
I know that the closest Julie may get is
watching it on live TV.
I am glad at least that I found the
time to write a little tonight.
Julie should remind myself to do it
more often.
I've had a long day, so Julie is off to let
my/her mind focus on a fantasy that
actually might show even greater
optimism on my part...
[and believe me, if Julie could help<br>
make it happen I would]
but I'd love it if the Dodgers and the
Angels faced off next month.
but given my track record as of
late, Julie haven't been so hot with
most of my predictions.
[I most sincerely hope I'm due]
xoxox,
T
